I'm not bitter any more I just well, I hate the holidays.
All of them.
Christmas is the worst.
There is SO MUCH on Families!
Which really is great, if the world concentrated more on families it would be a better place.
I can't help but feel empty inside.
I look back, and I look forward.
I will always be missing something.
No matter what I do.
No matter who I am.
It sucks!
On the other hand, how grateful I am to have my dear hubby by my side. Holding my hand. I am stronger with him next to me. He makes coping with the pain of losing my two boys more bearable. I am grateful I have someone who will hold me when I cry and help me find spirit of Christmas even when I can't bare put up a Christmas tree. I am blessed! I truly am!
